A letter to my white body

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Somehow we lost it. We’ve lost our shit.

Literally, the first time giving birth I lost my shit, and my midwife wiped my ass. She also kept me from hemorrhaging all of my blood, as I clung to my white privilege at home; but my ex-husband pressured me to have sex once my stitches healed, and I felt small and fragile. The second time I gave birth, I lost my vagina. Like, my cervix fell into my vagina, then my bladder and…